I’ve been
feeling pretty sick lately and have been taking as much downtime as is
possible. Fortunately my work allows me
to sit down with people, so that’s helpful.
Still, it’s hard to by sympathetic and understanding when you feel like
crap. But that’s an issue I’ve learned
to work through long ago. It’s kind of
necessary as a therapist. Having a bad
day and getting snippy is career suicide.
I’ve noticed
tensions have gotten higher lately. I
don’t think it’s the zombie attacks.
Those are still happening with lessening regularity. Everything is under control in that
department. Rather, there’s been an
increase in people getting in verbal, and sometimes physical, altercations. Some between the Havenites and the UAS
immigrants, but also between people in general.
Tempers are short. People won’t
admit why that is, or they just don’t realize, but I think I’ve got a good
idea.
It has
officially gotten real that people left.
Yes, Josh has been talking about leaving for a minute and he has been
gone for a little while now. But the
last group of people have left and, according to Josh, are getting settled
in. Josh and his people are officially
moved out. It’s real. And now people are dealing with all those
emotions. We all have abandonment issues. That’s just a reality of the world we live
in. Anyone who says they don’t is a liar
or a sociopath. Or both. If you’re a sociopath, it’s pretty much a
given you are a liar too. But I digress…
The point is
that we’ve lost most everyone in our lives and the only solace we had, as poor
as it was, was that they didn’t have a choice.
People died, they didn’t actively choose to leave. With Josh and his group, though, they
did. And that’s not a betrayal, it’s not
bad of them, but it does touch a wound that has only barely begun to scab
over. There can be a knee-jerk emotional
reaction, and that leads to the irritability we’re seeing. Right now, people probably don’t even realize
it’s there, but it has to be dealt with.
If you let
this anger grow, it’s going to take over.
We live in a world where death has become much more prevalent, but that
doesn’t mean that it is the norm. Death
and abandonment are still tragedies. So
we can’t get cynical and act like we don’t need to deal with that. When it comes to Josh and his wife and
Kincaid and all the others who left, they didn’t choose to specifically leave
us. They didn’t take a long look at us
and say, “Yeah…that guy. I’m leaving
that loser right about now.” No, they
decided, for their own good, to make a new home. This isn’t personal and if you try to make it
so, it will eat you alive. This isn’t
like the Exiles (who I heard a Havanite grumbling about under his breath the
other day) who attacked the governing body of Haven, made it personal, then
left. There’s no judgment, no
anger. Just that sense of sadness when
you move on from something you love. And
you can rest assured that sadness is on both sides.
Although, on
the other end of that spectrum, I can’t help but notice that a lot of UAS guys
seem calmer knowing that Kincaid moved out.
From what I’ve gathered, the guy is akin to the boogeyman to them. Which is understandable seeing as how he went
rogue that one time and blogged about torturing those UAS soldiers. And how he blew up a weapons depot. And how he’s made it very clear that he will
end anyone who stands against him. And
because everyone knows his history of being a marauder, which some find it hard to move past. Personally, I think that Kincaid gets a rush
out of being the big scary guy. I’ll
leave it there though, since he once calmly threatened me with a facial/rectal
exam if I ever “psychoanalyze my shit again.”
He also implied that the inside of his head would make me cry. In my own defense, I can guarantee it
wouldn’t, but it seemed pretty important for him to have me believe that, so
I’ll just leave it there. I like the guy, truthfully. He's got issues, though. But find me someone who doesn't.
Oh, and
speaking of Kincaid, before he left, he dropped
three cases of root beer off at my Luxury Shoppe (the extra “p” and “e” are for
classiness!) It’s premium A&W
stuff. Kincaid found it somewhere
(probably on one of the many scouting trips between Haven in his new home) and traded it for
my entire stock of mallow cups. For
real. I don’t get it either. I didn’t think I could so much as give those
things away. Dude loves his mallow, I
guess. Then again, soda is horrifically
expired now whereas mallow cups have been on the shelves since the Great
Depression so he may feel he got the better end of the deal. For root beer, though, I will risk all manner
of flat, sugary botchalism. I know I’m
not the only one to feel the same way, so stop on by and trade something neat
for expired nostalgia.
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